Perspective

I'm having a bit of a down day. It could be that my three-day weekend is over, or that I couldn't find the perfect chef salt-and-pepper shakers while out yesterday to compliment my now-useful kitchen. But the big reason is I weighed myself this morning, and I am exactly where I started more than a month ago. Ugh.

I've never shared my "number" on my blog, or with anyone but my husband for that matter. Mainly because I always get discouraged when I hear someone (who is about my height or taller) say they need to lose a few pounds, or are "so fat" or whatever, when their weight is what I'm hoping to reach. So I don't want to make someone feel bad if their goal is what I currently weigh. Everyone has a number or size that is comfortable and healthy for them, and it doesn't always have to be what the height/weight charts across the Internet or society tells you to be. My goal is actually on the higher end of the spectrum for my height. When I lost 28 pounds a few years ago, even though I was in the normal range for my height, I, and several of my friends and family, thought I looked too thin. So now I'm trying to reach what I think is a good compromise between what I weigh now and what I weighed then. But it sure seems to be taking a loonng time!

I can't quite figure out why my metabolism is acting like a stalled car. I have had my thyroid tested – perfectly fine. I do have a Vitamin D deficiency, but I've been taking supplements for months now. I exercise regularly. I eat right (the majority of the time, that is). Yet not even a few ounces want to drop off – why?!

I'm frustrated and a bit defeated, but I know that anytime I feel like this, I need to put it all in perspective. I am eating "real" foods, drinking water and working out more now than I ever have before, which has to be doing good things for my body (even though the scale doesn't seem to think so.)

Despite being a little blue, I don't want to give up. I will just forge ahead with the plan I'm on, continue counting points, increase my workout sessions and make more and more good choices (especially on weekends.) Hopefully, perseverance will pay off in the long run. Hopefully.